The 17 Emotions Of Handing In My Notice

Usually, my journey to work resembles a ‘Smiths’ album. I saunter to the train station and in my sombre mood I begin to pick faults with everything around me, with a feeling of dread in my stomach.

Not today ;)

The predictably late train did not bother me, nor did the bad-mannered chavs or even the unnecessarily loud announcement from the train conductor, who blatantly hates his job as much as I do.  For I had a brown envelope in my bag that contained a letter – a letter which symbolizes a MASSIVE step in this dramatic transition of mine.

In case you haven’t worked it out yet…

I have handed in my notice.

Stevie Wonder style – Signed, sealed and delivered, baby :)

Here is what I felt:

 

Hysteria – The endorphins kick in as soon as I hand it to my boss, during small-talk over the latest football transfers. Hehe, sneaky sneaky.

Absent-minded – I want to be that noble man, who is professional and puts 100% energy of his remaining hours at work. But I have already failed in becoming him as my mind wanders and daydreams about my future.

Nervous – Fear kicks in. “Oooh have I done the right thing? Is it too early to be doing this?” Don’t be fooled by my smile – I’m happy but extremely nervous too.

Doubt – Directly related to the above emotion. Some times doubt is actually our friend as it looks out for us and stops us from harming ourselves. Well thanks for your concern Mr Doubt, but I have no use for you right now.

Identity – For a while I have felt like a phony and have been guilty of human nature’s greatest and saddest crime – not being true to myself. Today I’ve ripped off another piece of my mask and the real me is starting to show. I like him better than the other guy already.

Narcissistic – I become so self-involved that I can’t understand why the whole world is not as excited as me. Why is David Cameron not mentioning me handing my notice in on this week’s ‘Prime Minister’s Questions??’ Oh, so Obama has enough time to mention his beef with Gaddafi, but he fails to highlight my termination of employment!?!? :O

Gamble – Financially, this is a gamble. I haven’t yet made a sustainable online income like I hoped for and although I am over the moon to leave my job – I will now say goodbye to a steady paycheck.

 

Idiocy – After handing in my notice, I found the nearest room and closed the door. I then blasted the new Foo Fighters song at obscene noise levels in my Ipod and played air-guitar around the room….seemed like a good idea at the time.

Naughty – The feeling of being a bit of a rebel. Love it.

 

Mantra – I am a very intolerant person, but I have developed a mantra to get me through the annoying bureaucracy that comes with a job. It is simply this; “tick-tock,” which symbolizes that there is a countdown to how long I have to put up with this for.

Yearning – A deep longing for my dream of travelling around this fine world feels ever so closer – but still so far away.

 

Notorious – I am well known for leaving jobs. I envisage all of the conversations my family will be having behind my back when they find out this. “Eeeee what will we do with Anthony….” It annoys me a little.

Opacity – The feeling that many people will misunderstand me and my choice.

Tearful…yeah RIGHT :P pahahaha you must be joking! Try Tenable – People say I am stubborn and I disagree – I believe I am single-minded (the bridge between the two is small, but the definitions are very different). NOTHING could change my mind and keep me here, now that my mind is made up. Not even Kate Beckinsale dipped in chocolate!

Impatient – My mind has already left my job, but my body hasn’t. Raaaaaah, hurry up September 2nd!!

Canny – The Geordie word that goes with just about everything! How am I feeling after handing in my notice? Canny! It’s going to be canny scary and canny exciting at the same time. Nevertheless…..it’s all canny!

Elation – The positive feelings outweigh the negative feelings catastrophically. I have wanted to do this for so long and I am delighted and ecstatic that I have :)

 

Can you relate to any of the above emotions when you handed in your notice? Are you still in a job which you dislike and are considering leaving for pastures new? Share your thoughts below. If you liked this post, do be ever so kind as to share it on Facebook, Stumbleupon or Twitter with the icons above the post.


26 Responses

  1. Christine

    OMG, Anthony! Have u booked u a trip? Cleaned and sold everything u own? Where will u go? What will u do? flipping congratulations! Please, go live ur dreams and dont look back. You’ll make it work!

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    • Anthony

      Hey Christine,
      Haha no I haven’t booked my trip, but I will be very soon ;) I have sold almost everything I own and I’m always clean :)

      The “where to go and what to do” part is still very fluffy! Thanks for your lovely words of support, mate!

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  2. Poi

    Good for you! I remember feeling exactly the same – Narcissistic – no one cared half as much as I hoped, I wanted the whole city council to come to a stand still wondering how they were going to continue without me.

    I convinced myself people were to jealous to talk about it so pretended they didn’t care, or maybe they just didn’t :(

    Also would you really not consider staying for Kate in Chocolate? I would have to at least give it some time.
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    • Anthony

      Hey Poi,
      Cheers mate! I am sure they deep down died a little inside when you left….they were just doing the British stiff upper lip thing ;) I walked through Newcastle last night and everyone was getting on with their lives as normal – but I bet they were holding back the tears really.

      Haha if we are talking Fry’s Peppermint Cream….maybe I’d spend another night here – just for Kate.

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  3. monthlyadventure

    Hahaha…LOVE how your 17 emotions spell it all out nicely for all of us: H.A.N.D.I.N.G. I.N. M.Y. N.O.T.I.C.E.

    WAY TO GO!!!!!!!!!!!!! SO proud of you!!

    Now did I read this correctly…you’re leaving on September 2nd?? Ooooo….two months in advance. Well done. :)

    Looking forward to your journeys.

    Patricia

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    • Anthony

      Hey Patricia,
      Well noticed! Clever lass you :D

      Thank you so much. Nay, I leave the job on the 2nd September – I’ll come back from a mini-backpacking trip around Europe and will work my final week then.

      Skype soon for all the details!!

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  4. Mirella

    Oh wow! Congratulations!

    I handed in my notice 5 weeks ago and I’m now in my last week of work (in teaching you have to give notice early). I can barely wait until Friday and letting it all go.

    I can relate to so much of your list and my favourites include:

    Mantra: I too am intolerant and I love that you admit it! I have the same sort of thing going on but mine has been “x more days, x more days”

    Notorious: I too have become well known for how many jobs I leave and how I pick and choose. Picking and choosing also feels powerful and reminds me I’m in control of my life, not my job.

    The fact that I feel so similarly as you do makes me realise I’m not as strange or different as I might have begun to believe.

    I’ll be watching to see what you’re doing next to prepare for the next stage of your adventure. It’s so exciting! I’m so excited for you!
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    • Anthony

      Hey Mirella,
      Thanks – and back at you!! You say you’re intolerant…..and you’re a TEACHER!? Haha I’d be awful!! So you finish THIS Friday? What are you going to do next? Awesome stuff!!!

      How intolerant are you? I’m not the type to get annoyed in a queue, but I can’t stand people who talk loudly in Public Libraries….or talk during a film – RAAAAAAAH! Haha, mainly I just can’t tolerate dickheady people and many members of the human race have the tendency to get under my skin.

      Yes, picking and choosing is definitely empowering and I’d rather start and leave a million jobs, than stay in one forever that I know I hate. Amen, sista! Thanks for your support :)

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      • Mirella

        Yes I finish this Friday!! Yay for me!
        I’m not sure what I’m doing next, although since I posted that comment I’ve found at least two interesting positions for myself. Time to polish up my applications.

        I basically want something part time, interesting and that pays well. I know, it narrows down the search a lot. I want part time because I want time to work on my novel and a few other writing projects. I want interesting because I’m sick of being bored and doing mindless crap. And I want good money because I’m worth it! So I’m looking for something that I can do in conjunction with writing that allows me good flexibility.

        I’m intolerant also of “dickheady” people. I do not suffer fools gladly at all, or people who don’t realise or don’t acknowledge that we are all SHARING this universe. It’s not students that feel the brunt of my intolerance (or not for long because they’re too scared of me), but rather other incompetent adults that are littered throughout my world for some reason :P
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      • Anthony

        Hey Mirella-ella-ella-ay-ay-ay (I bet you get that all the time)

        Awesome stuff! I too am considering the prospect of part time employment while working on some major projects, good on you! A novel!!! Maaaaan, that stinks of awesomeness!
        ” I want interesting because I’m sick of being bored and doing mindless crap. And I want good money because I’m worth it!”

        LOVE ITTTT!!

        This not a site for the shrinking violets. I can’t wait to read your thoughts on your final day :)

  5. Paul Iveson

    EEeee Anthony what are we going to do with you!! *eyes roll* A massive well done and good on you! Your chance to live up to your full potential and live your dreams is that one step closer. I need a major catchup with you, i’m sure you had blonde hair n were wearing Addidas poppers last time I saw you ;) Well done again Cuz. xx

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    • Anthony

      Hey Paul,
      Cheers Cuz! Haha! You’re wrong….it was a Le Coq Sportif hoody, with a massive silver chain outside my top and my hair was a ginger tint of “Sun-in.”

      Aye, get yourself round for a brew soon! Or we can just go to Broomside and complain about the food being slow, yet still go back every time. xx

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    • Anthony

      Hey Niall,
      Cheers man :D That’s awesome to hear! I’m expecting it to be extremely tough, so I’m under no illusions. The worse case scenario is teaching English – but the more I think about that, the more I think I’d actually enjoy it!

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  6. Julia

    Congrats on handing in your notice! Did you have to give 2 months or were you just being nice? Haha. I can’t actually freaking wait for that moment when i can see the end in sight, even though I love my job. Wow, and you have definitely “beaten the clock”! Well done mate.
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    • Anthony

      Hey Julia,
      Thank you so much! I am contractually obliged to give 2 months, so that they can get someone with a CRB, and someone who makes a brew as good as me…good luck with that one.

      I’ve never felt that – love for a job, so I can’t relate. Maybe it’s harder because you are more confused? Hence your website’s name! I will beat the clock when I’m outa here…..still got some work to do yet :)

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      • Anthony

        Haha I can’t deny that right now. But here’s the bit where you get insanely jealous of me….

        I share my birthday with the one and only….

        TIMMY MALLET!!! :P

  7. Sarah

    Wahey! Well done you. I can relate to every one of these feelings (except the Canny one, what does that mean? Something Bizarre and Northern no doubt…) I think to feel this mass of emotions after all the time spent quashing your sense of self is incredibly liberating. Enjoy every scary moment of it!

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    • Anthony

      Haha you just wait, Sarah! My evil plan to make to world speak Geordie English will be accomplished on my travels!

      Thanks :) I’m hating it here right now. My body has not left but my spirit has (yes, very cheesy).

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  8. Hogga

    Wow those are a lot of feelings… how do you contain your giant vagina?
    Just kidding… too far hogga? Sawry!

    But in all seriousness when I had to commute on the train in the city (when I wasn’t a homeless blogging bum like I am now) it always made my day when the one conductor was working and he would always be so cheerful and make jokes. It was awesome… that story wasn’t as exciting as it sounded in my head…

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    • Anthony

      hahaha you seem to know a lot about giant vag…. no….I’m better than that. (ish).

      That story killed my soul :)

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  9. Kim

    Antony, I’m a little late to the game here but GOOD JOB! Your last day is so, so close now. I can’t wait to tell my own version of this very same story (some day… soon!)

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    • Anthony

      Hey Kim,
      Naaaaah, don’t worry – I know how hard it is to keep up in blog land with them stupid work thingies!! I’m looking forward to reading your resignation post!!!

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  10. Beki Swindells

    Been sat here in my 9-5 (last day today too :) off on holiday tommmorow then when i come back following my dream of becoming a nail technician :) and I would just like to add that you are so inspirational and I feel that when I have a problem in the future it will be nice to come and read your blogs to help me face these problems :)

    Thank you :) and I really hope you are enjoying your time travelling

    Beki :)

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